This weekend was crazy-town-banana-pants.

Thank you, Community:



Saturday:

*Morning "Yard" sale at our building - I made 30 bucks, what what!

*Beaglefest 2012!!! Frank, Blue and I took The Pepperton out to Chantilly for an afternoon to run free in the company of about 50 other beagles. The event was put on by BREW (Beagle Rescue, Education, and Welfare) - from whom we adopted the little dudelet, as we sometimes (ridiculously) call him. The best part? His sister was there!! His litter was rescued around New Years Day of 2012, and so one of his sisters, originally named Champagne (now named Missy) was there! The dogs couldn't have cared less, but the owners were pretty excited. And FYI, Pepper's original name was Dick Clark. Yeah.

*Jess' baby shower in the late afternoon with Ben/Jess, Franklin, Meghan, and Brian Baum! (and, you know, others, but of course I will only mention the awesomes)

*Tara's Sage-Cleansing party at night, complete with, obviously, sage burning, and some amazing 90s jams.

Sunday:

*Lunch at Shake Shack with Emily

*Elyse's wedding!!! So much love, happiness, friendship, laughter, and of course dancing. See:

Monday:

*Elyse's post-wedding brunch at her (new!!) husband's parents' house in Great Falls
*Re-signing my lease for the new place....because....

I got lucky and was able to switch to an apt with the same layout (same size) but on the 14th floor. Which is the top floor. Facing North. With a view of the city. I can see the monuments and the National Cathedral. It is awesome and gets my insides churning (in a good way) whenever I think about it. I move in June15th, and I cannot wait. Joy thieves: fuck 'em.

joy thieves and tailspins

the most awesome elyse recently posted about her experience with joy thieves - i myself had an encounter with one and it took the wind right out of my sails...of a ship i was already feeling kind of insecure about.

BOAT METAPHOR!

my boat is tiny as shit, and then someone comes along and says" wow, your boat would fit in the giant Carnival Cruise Ship line I'M buying, but you're single so it's fine"

(Okay so maybe not a great nor subtle metaphor but i think you get the idea.)

the perfect storm of existing insecurities and a joy thief. i think a joy thief tends to have ZERO idea they are a such a person, and it makes me wonder when i might have been one. so if i've ever been one to you, i'm sorry. because being on the other end is a shitty place to be.

it takes one person (or maybe two) to send me into an emotional tailspin. that apartment that i was SO excited about is now:

my apartment isn't big enough and i won't even own it because i've been dicking around with my life and my (lack of) savings and don't have a high paying job because i'm three years behind where i should be in my career because i didn't get a post graduate degree right out of undergrad and/or it took me too long to figure out what i wanted to do in the first place, and i'm single and nowhere near sharing my life with someone and too undisciplined about being the size i want to be and

JESUS CHRIST. IT'S TOO MUCH.

i want to be able to tell you that through the course of writing this post i've turned it around already and am telling my insecurities to go fuck themselves, but that is not the case. at least not yet. i can see the absurdity in my emotional tailspin and can ALSO see the many things i am incredibly lucky to have (amazing friends and family, the means to support myself, a relatively healthy body) - but the tailspin always trumps the gratitude. which in turn makes me feel worse, don't you know it.

anyways - this is a PSA against joy thieves and emotional tailspins. don't let them happen to you!

my jazzfest experience in GIFs

an homage to my new fave tumblr, what should we call me

trying to sleep tuesday night before I left on wednesday:

when the guy i shared a cab with asked me if i was in town for the oncology conference:

when florence + the machine started playing "shake it out":



all of the eating:

being with kk dan and rosa for 4 uninterrupted days: